And that’s why he checked into rehab and that’s why he, he says, he cheated on Sandra Bullock. In Jesse James‘ interview with Nightline last night (May 25) Jesse answered questions about what made him act like such a dumbass and wtf he was thinking.
“My whole childhood I never had a chance to be a kid,” said James, who lived with his dad after his parents divorced. “I remember the clenched-teeth, strained-neck look on his face. He beat my ass pretty good a bunch of times. Football star, bike builder, Monster Garage TV star–all that stuff is a huge smokescreen so people won’t see that I’m a scared, abused kid, a 7-year-old.” (His father denied the abuse allegations in an email to ABC.)
He talked about breaking his arm when he was 7, after he fell when his dad chased him around the house (“he laughed at me when I hit the ground and called me a dummy”). When he reflected that Sunny is now the same age he had to stop the interview after becoming emotional.
So what the hells the connection? He said he wanted to get caught because, “I’ve never felt good enough for anyone.” He says that’s also why he would overwork himself, do stupid stunts, and “push someone away that i thought was going to leave anyway.”
More from the interview and check out the videos of the interview after the jump
Some other information he shared during the interview:
Was Sandra surprised when he told her about the affairs?
“I think she’s had her suspicions in the past and i lied my way out of it”
What did he say to Sandra when you went to rehab?
“I wanted to make sure she would take care of Sunny and she said ‘no problem, okay’ and she told me she was proud of me.”
On seeing Sandra with baby Louis:
“I looked at her in a different way, i knew she wasn’t going to to
leave. To see her in a role of mother is one of the most amazing things
I’ve ever seen.”
What does he see in the future with Sandra?
“I still have hopes of saving some sort of relationship with Sandy. We’re getting divorced, I’m 100% sure of that.”Also, he three other children do see Sandra and Jesse will co-parent baby Louis in some way with Sandra.Whatever
he shares at this point is going to sound like an excuse, so I don’t
know why he bothered exposing all that. I think what I really learned
from this interview is that Sandra is an even more gracious and
beautiful person than I knew and the whole thing makes me sad.