Britney Lays It Out For Us

May 29th, 2007 // 8 Comments

Britney unleashed a torrent of “stop picking on me” on her official website . I’m sure she was high on some good shit or drunk when she crafted this but it almost made me re-think things that I’ve written about her. Then I saw a recent photo of her with her weave up in a tangled mess and wearing a stained dress and realized she’s not seeing what we’re seeing. So the truth must prevail!

I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.

It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here.

Why doesn’t it shock me that Britney watches Tyra? Keep reading, this is pretty long.

Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.

This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life.

You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.

I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.”
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time.

I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.

I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her.

Love, Britney

Quote of the month…

It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.

Whose quote is that? Hers? She’s started a “Quote of the Month” feature…with her own quotes? Damn, Self-Important! Well at least there’s no need for a tell-all, now. She’s put it all out there. I fell asleep around paragraph four. You?

By J. Harvey
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  1. Char

    I actually think that’s the smartest thing she’s done in ages. But somehow it needs to make a connection with the crazy clothes she goes out in public wearing.

  2. Lu

    Is she directing this to her ONE remaining fan? No one cares!!

  3. sera

    everyone is so mean to her. including the blogger who posted this. we’re only human and we all make mistakes. i’m glad she is reflecting on her life and letting others know about it. everyone should do that.

  4. youhavenoidea

    What the fuck is up with her hair??

  5. Sara Pandora

    I doubt if she’s the one who wrote this. I mean, she probably paid someone to do it for her. It sounds too smart for her.

    Come on, remember the video where she talks to the camera and sounded (and looked) like she was high? I can’t imagine this is the same person writing this sob, whiny note.

  6. Zekers

    I can’t help but ask the question:
    Why does she ALWAYS have stains on the front of her clothing???

  7. Me

    She may be human, but only just. At least she does a mediocre impression of a mid-20′s earth female. I think she got that impression slightly confused with gnat-picking, mating gorillas though.

  8. aww give the girl a break.. she is 25 and divorced with 2 kids . no matter what age most of us still freak out when our boyfriend doesn’t call for a few days! I cannot imagine having to go through the heartache of a tough marriage and divorce with the whole world watching and judging.

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